Not psychedelic therapy.Not a medicine.Not healing.A four-month protocol for removing what was never yours to carry.
Awaken with 5 is a four-month protocol built around a single private, one-on-one 5-MeO experience. One month of preparation. One day. Three months of integration. It is not about becoming anything. It is about removing what was never yours to carry.
- Medically Screened
- 1-on-1 Experience
- Four-Month Container
Not becoming. UNbecoming.
Medical screening, clinical preparation, and four months of structure. Most people who arrive here have already done the work — years of it. What they haven't done is remove the thing that kept making the work necessary.
Not everyone who applies is eligible. A physician decides that, and it is not a decision we can overturn.
Why you're here
You've likely done the work. The books, the biohacking, the breathwork, the therapy. You did them sincerely. They worked — in the way they were built to work.
You've built a life that looks the way it was supposed to look. And something underneath it never settled.
That isn't a discipline problem. The tools were built for a nervous system you don't have. And they were aimed at a layer that isn't generating the problem.
This isn't about adding more. It's about removing what was never yours to carry.
This is the quiet knock. It doesn't go away.
Or none of that is true, and the work is done, and the life is good, and the only thing you want is to see what it is standing on.
That is not a lesser reason. You do not have to be looking for something to be eligible for this.
The question we are asked most often is whether this takes your edge.
It doesn't. What it briefly removes is the assumption underneath the edge — the sense that there is someone in here who has to hold all of it together. The drive was never what that assumption was holding up.
The other question we are asked is how long it lasts.
Minutes. Not a day spent somewhere you cannot leave, and not eight hours of waiting to come back. Most people who come here have never taken a psychedelic, and several have said afterward that the length was the reason they could say yes at all.
Our approach
No group retreats. No feathers. No spiritual bypass. A screened, structured protocol — and something that holds the change after the day is over.
The nearest thing to this is not a retreat. It is the other professional engagements you have paid for — defined scope, months rather than days, a named person accountable for it.
Hold us to that standard. Who is responsible. What happens if something goes wrong. What is left when it ends.
Not psychedelic therapy.
It doesn't fix your ego, process your pain, or integrate your trauma. It interrupts the operation those tools have been working on top of.
Not a group experience.
Private. One-on-one. Not performative, not ceremonial, and nobody else in the room.
A Four-Month Protocol
The day is the smallest part of it. The month before and the three months after are what make the change hold.
What the protocol looks like
This isn't a day trip. It's four months, in three phases.
Preparation
One month before
Medical screening, with eligibility determined by a licensed physician. Nervous-system preparation, which trains your system to stay open while its own alarms are firing. A daily practice drawn from mindfulness-based cognitive therapy. Sessions with a licensed clinical therapist before you go anywhere near the molecule. Not therapy — preparation. You don't arrive hoping. You arrive prepared.
The Experience
One day
A full day, one-on-one. Sixty to ninety minutes of preparation. A two-hour window for the experience itself, in which each administration's acute effects last ten to thirty minutes. Then at least ninety minutes of reflection and debrief. 5-MeO is metabolised quickly and clears fully. There is no comedown. What people do report is exhaustion over the following days — not from the molecule, but from a nervous system recalibrating. We arrange transportation back to your accommodation.
Integration
Three months after
Three months of weekly one-on-one integration. Every session is mandatory. This is the part that gets skipped everywhere else, and it is the reason most psychedelic experiences become a story someone tells rather than a change someone keeps. The experience opens a window of neuroplasticity. Integration is what gets built inside it.
One day is not a protocol. Four months is.
What holds it
The experience is the shortest part of this. Everything below is why it doesn't fade.
Eligibility is determined by a licensed physician — not by us, and not by you. He conducts the intake conversation and the clearance himself. A registered nurse is on site when he indicates it, and reachable and available to come on site otherwise. This is not a ceremony run by someone who did a weekend training.
We track change with the REWired Index, our own pre- and post-protocol assessment. We started measuring recently, so it covers fewer than fifty participants to date.
Fifty people is not a clinical trial. We say so because the alternative is to let you assume it was one.
Suffering runs as a sequence: separation, then identity, then meaning-making. Integration works that sequence in reverse. Not a new belief to practise. A structure that removes the need for one.
Why 5-MeO
Most psychedelics add. They give you more — more imagery, more content, more material to interpret afterward.
5-MeO subtracts. Fast-acting. Non-visual. It doesn't decorate the self or rearrange it. It briefly removes the assumption the self is standing on.
That isn't a side effect. That's the mechanism. And it's why it belongs at the end of an architecture, not the beginning of one.
- 5-HT1A
- Non-Visual
- Minutes
"If other psychedelics show you more, 5-MeO shows you nothing. That's the point."
Who you'll be with
You won't do this alone.
Nicholas and Fehren Kusmich facilitate every experience personally, one-on-one, supported by a network of medical and clinical professionals.
Between them: more than a decade of work at the intersection of nervous-system architecture and non-dual inquiry, and over 300 facilitated experiences.
In their words
Nothing around me has changed, and I have changed quite a bit. The first thing that I've told close people around me is that it was like there was an emotional reset button, and I really mean that. Like a button or a switch that was just pressed.
I'm still comfortable being who I am. I'm not concerned about stories that I may have told myself in the past, and if I do sort of go down that path, I'm very aware of it and I can get myself out of it quickly.
I'm able to just stand up for myself and be myself around others, regardless of what they think of me.
Not everyone is medically eligible. Not everyone is at this point in the work.
If the knock is familiar, the next step is a conversation.
Application, then a conversation. Medical screening comes after that.